The limit of my Willpower.

YESH!

Its been fun recently at work.

I've been WORKING!

YAY!

Finally, I get to do some stuff instead of just looking at my laptop the whole time.

Which reminds me.

I need to fill up my logbook.

Shit.

Which links to my IPP Report and Gantt Chart.

Double "Shit".

And I'm left with another 4 weeks more before the start of my CCNA Boot Camp.

Bullshit.

Ah well. I'll get it done one way or another.

Soon.

When I get back at office.

At least I have something to do then.

Now back to topic.

I've been trying to suppress myself.

From scolding vulgarities and other bad stuff that I don't want to do.

Because I want to change.

Improve.

For the better.

For the future.

I've lost control today.

Pfft.

But I did think a lot before I lost control.

I'm feeling tired in the mid afternoons.

For no reason.

Sandman just seems to come and drop a few grains of his magic sand into my eyes.

Then my eyelids will get heavy suddenly and start to close.

At first, I thought it was because I was lugging 3 kg of weight in my bag to almost everywhere I go at work.

Not to mention, my shoulder muscles really feel stronger from that.

Thanks a lot.

Now, I think its because I'm not sleeping early.

Even though I get 7 hours of sleep.

Sometimes.

And perhaps its the thoughts.

The amount of willpower I need from my mind to suppress myself that wears out my mind, body and soul.

It was about 23 to 24 days without incident.

Today is the beginning of a new day.

And perhaps.

I'll manage to suppress it forever.

I hope.

Even if I can't, I must try.

Because.

Its to...

Cleanse my past.

Change my present.

Create my future.