A Change or an Evolution?

Ahnyeonghaseyo, Khalis imnida!

Can't believe I did that.

Oh well.

Its finally Week 4 of IPP.

Which means at the end of this week, I would have finished a month of attachment.

Wow.

Time really flies when you're not thinking about it.

I can still remember how we first entered the company.

The briefing.

The introductory lecture.

The first 3 days of doing nothing.

The discussions.

The silent aura in the office.

The first week of formal wear.

The first 20 cent coin I placed in the Daytona machine at the Recreation Room.

The first game of pool at NCS.

The first time we finished work officially at 6 p.m.

The reading of the CCNA book that still lies in front of me now.

Then came the second week.

Routing protocols started coming back for revenge.

RIP, RIP v2, OSPF, IGRP and EIGRP.

Then a few newer and advanced ones that Zhiyang wanted to learn.

BGP and HSRP.

How I read until I almost fell asleep.

Which I really did on one of the days.

Analysing of the project.

Test Cases.

UATs.

More work for me, which unbelievably meant something good.

Off-site work for the first time.

At the Media Development Authority at the URA building.

Item tagging.

Then came Week 3.

Hari Raya Haji.

My mind-boggling decision on what I wanted to do after I came out of army.

Which, I've finally decided to give it a shot.

And I believe in it.

I can do it.

Helped another supervisor at Mediacorp.

Saw Tay Ping Hui, Mark Lee, Ann Kok, Paige Chua, and Suzanne Jung.

Got shocked at her height.

She looked way different on Channel Newsasia than in real person.

The only newscaster I pay attention to.

=X. I ought to slap myself.

Didn't wow and act like a fanboy though.

Their faces at Mediacorp.

Looked so natural and cheerful there.

Unlike being hounded by fans outside.

Not that I'm saying its not good to have fans.

Surely sometimes, some people want to have their free time alone.

The quiet and stressful working environment I felt there.

Then freedom after finishing work there.

And one of the most interesting experiences as a project assistant at the relocation of MDA.

Which completely drained my energy from 4 p.m till 6 a.m in the next morning.

Gotta say it was fun and full of experiences.

Not to mention, I've never felt that tired till I could not write anymore on my logbook.

The first time I slept peacefully on my bed.

And finally, its the beginning of Week 4.

Beginning of another new week.

Another reminder that my time is running out.

Not that I can do anything with army coming.

But, at least I could do something else in the meantime.

Which I am currently doing in the office when I have nothing to do.

Learning korean language on my own.

For now, that is.

I'm still gonna find a class to learn.

And I must say, its a pretty interesting language.

And it makes me open my mouth in awe on how fast they speak it, and understand what the
person is talking about in a second.

I take 5 seconds to decode a single word.

Just like learning ABC again.

ABC was funny.

Jia, Yi, Bing, Ding was interesting for awhile.

Until I came to use it often.

Then it became a drug.

Now, I want to be able to read traditional chinese faster as compared to the speed I can read it
now.

I get stuck on the hard words.

But I can still understand the simple ones.

Must be because they looked familiar.

I want to know how to speak basic korean communicative language before I graduate.

Or maybe before I enter army.

I feel I've changed.

A bit for the better.

And a bit for the worse.

Better in the fact that my ways of thinking have changed.

How I should become more responsible for my own future.

How I should plan for my own future.

How I should do things for myself and not rely on others.

Even though I still rely sometimes.

How I should improve myself on my own.

How I should have self-control.

Like reducing the amount of vulgarities I hurl. =X

Whoops, that didn't come out of me.

I've said around 5 to 8 today.

Which is good compared to the 20 to 40-ish I might say everyday.

And worse for the fact, I still say it out.

I still tekan and scold people.

Heh.

I want to do great things.

Change the world.

That was what I wanted at first.

I wanted to break barriers between the poor and the rich.

Now, to begin on that path.

I want...

To know how to speak fluent korean.

To know how to speak fluent japanese.

To know how to speak fluent mandarin.

To sing well.

To sing better.

To sing beyond my limits.

To endure better.

To endure as much as I can.

To gain confidence.

To be confident in everything I do.

To do the best I can do.

To do the best I should do.

I want to change.

Not only myself.

But people's lives.

The world.

For the better.