End of time.

Finally, after 12 weeks of project-ing and fun.

I can say "Bye."

Not that I'm happy about leaving FYP.

It has brought happy, and unhappy times.

Of course, remember the good times and forget the bad ones.

Student Meal Hotcakes with Sausage for S$4.50 every morning
Lunch trips
Class outings
Seoul Garden feast
Prawn "slaying"
Rides at Downtown East
Big Walk Event

Memories, that stay forever,
And will not be forgotten.
Even if I do forget,
Looking at the door of the lab L-633,
Will refresh and remind me,
Of the fun and laughter,
We had together.

Today, 3 of us went to catch a movie at Marina Square.

Me, Alvin and Zijian.

Quantum Of Solace.

Since it was like the end, we almost fell asleep. I pretty much think its due to the comfy seats and the cooling air-con.

Still, I forced my eyes to stay open till now. This is the second time I'm watching it. And its still nice to watch again.

The plot. The action. Definitely worth the second time.

Not the third time though.

Perhaps we will catch the upcoming Donnie Yen movie together again. Or perhaps Ong Bak 2.

Zijian left a note for me at the bottom of his recent post.

It does have a reason though.

A pretty sad day today. The last "chance" to do it.

Yet I've failed. And saw something else that has made me feel broken and lost again.

I may not know what is happening. But I definitely can infer some scenarios from what I've seen.

And since I'm negative, I'll always choose the worst one.

At least I don't fall hard if I fail.

I may have the power.

But doesn't each and everyone of us have it?

I may be a gem waiting to be discovered.

But some gems take decades.

Perhaps centuries.

Or millenniums, before they get discovered.

I've been waiting all my life.

Who's to say I'll need to wait another few more years to come?

The image of what I saw, loops indefinitely in my mind.

Perhaps, it was all a facade.

An imagination.

Something that doesn't happen in reality so often.

I'm worn out. Tired. Dead beat.

Yet, the looping of this memory, troubles and storms my mind with infinite whirls and jolts.

I used to find reason for everything I do. Then, I'll do it.

Funny.

This time, I've found reason.

But without courage and confidence to do it.

And its gradually leaking away within.

Just like what James Bond said.

When the adrenaline kicks in.

There has to be something to compensate.

Each time I get nearer, my adrenaline builds up.

Tension rises.

But, I can't compensate for it.

Not even a single shot.