Experiencing, Seeing new things every day.

Short post. Because its late.

Sick.

Like literally.

Down with sore throat, cough, a bit of flu and a slight headache.

Been sleeping late like times around now, which is like... 2:50 am?

Serves me right.

ANYHOO!

Today's newspaper is something that really shows something.

There's a malay boy, singing chinese songs on Campus Superstar.

The catch?

He has no education in chinese whatsoever.

DAMN!

Goes to show, as long as you believe you can do it, you will do it.

And he's really doing it.

And now, I can confirm and safely say what I want to be when I finish army.

I want to try to be a singer.
Not just any singer.
A singer, who can sing very well.
In multiple languages.
English songs.
Chinese songs.
Maybe malay songs?
Heck, I'll most probably wanna do Korean songs.
And perhaps Japanese songs.

I want to be, who I want to be.

Its currently 3:19 p.m in the office.

And I'm supposed to leave at 3 p.m.

Cos its half day.

Just doing updates on my Gantt chart and IPP report.

Thought I would post before I go home. Which I know I won't post at all.

Heh.

15 Days left!

If you exclude the weekends.

But not the holidays.

Minus Chinese New Year, it should be around 13 days.

Sigh.

Oh take a look at this.

I thought of it while thinking of how to write the word "Sigh"

There's the emo version, "Haiz..."

There's the cute version, "Hais..."

And the more neutral version which I always use,"Sigh."

Okay, that's crap.

Nothing to do, nothing to do.

How I wish I had like 50 grand or a 100 grand to embark on my journey to be able to sing well.

No money, no talk.

Everything revolves around money.

Go out, need money.

Go eat, need money.

Go have fun, also need money.

Go toilet, sometimes also must pay money.

Luckily, there's not much 10 cent toilets around anymore.


Well, I'm currently listening to....

K.Will Feat. MC 몽 - 러브119

The "러브" is pronounced "ro-beu", which is actually pronounced, Love in English.

But just translated to Korean Syllables.

Everyone knows "Love" in korean is spelled "사랑".

Or "sa-rang".

Nul sarang hae~

Shibnyeoni jinado~

Geudeh bameul, bichoneun juh byeolcheoreom~

Ah well, you'll hear that in the last chorus of Love 119.

Anyways, to all the readers out there.

恭喜发财, 新年快乐!

Sleepy at work. Bored at home.

OH MY GOD!

Its getting boring at home.

Not that I can even say that.

I can go find a job and work on weekends though.

But I'm just afraid it will suck my energy all away.

So I'm waiting for Poly to end before getting some nice, soft and smooth stacks of dough.

For those that don't really get it, but I think you guys know what it is.

I'm talking about money.

Dough doesn't come in stacks. It comes with the combination of water, eggs and flour.

Damn.

I hate that feeling.

The feeling of wanting to do something for your future, but you gotta wait for something to pass before you can begin.

And its 2 years.

MY GOD.

Luckily, I'm a patient guy.

I've learnt a lot these few days as compared to what I learnt in a week when I have nothing to do.

Seriously, work is fun when you got things to do.

Even though I feel sleepy and my eyes are half closed, I could still assemble wireless network cards into the CPU with full focus.

Because something is occupying my mind so that I don't think of other things.

Normal things like :

Got enough money to spend?
Got enough rest?
Taekwondo?
New clothing?
Some time to R&R? Otherwise known to me as Rest & Relax.
Logbook got write stuff?
IPP and Report. Left how many weeks?
Countdown to end of IPP?
Work at what time?
Must wake up what time?
Cisco CCNA Certification?
How much? 150++ bucks?!
Money?
How long till army?
How long till army ends?

We also have the really, not important ones :

World news...
Earthquakes, Typhoons and more natural disasters?
Terrorists again?
2012 December 21, Mayan Calendar depicts a new age.
Apophis is coming in 2029, then 2036.
Ice caps on Himalayas are melting.
Global Warming is in effect.
End of the world?

Then we have those really important ones that can't be forgotten :

How long before I can achieve my dream?
Can I do it?
Do I have enough money to do it?
What if I don't make it?
Will I still stick to my dream at the end of army?
Alamak! Got enough time?
No time! No time!

And more of it.

These are just the few important ones that I can remember.

And I cannot forget them.

Since its a hectic semester.

Gahh.

I need TIME!!

The limit of my Willpower.

YESH!

Its been fun recently at work.

I've been WORKING!

YAY!

Finally, I get to do some stuff instead of just looking at my laptop the whole time.

Which reminds me.

I need to fill up my logbook.

Shit.

Which links to my IPP Report and Gantt Chart.

Double "Shit".

And I'm left with another 4 weeks more before the start of my CCNA Boot Camp.

Bullshit.

Ah well. I'll get it done one way or another.

Soon.

When I get back at office.

At least I have something to do then.

Now back to topic.

I've been trying to suppress myself.

From scolding vulgarities and other bad stuff that I don't want to do.

Because I want to change.

Improve.

For the better.

For the future.

I've lost control today.

Pfft.

But I did think a lot before I lost control.

I'm feeling tired in the mid afternoons.

For no reason.

Sandman just seems to come and drop a few grains of his magic sand into my eyes.

Then my eyelids will get heavy suddenly and start to close.

At first, I thought it was because I was lugging 3 kg of weight in my bag to almost everywhere I go at work.

Not to mention, my shoulder muscles really feel stronger from that.

Thanks a lot.

Now, I think its because I'm not sleeping early.

Even though I get 7 hours of sleep.

Sometimes.

And perhaps its the thoughts.

The amount of willpower I need from my mind to suppress myself that wears out my mind, body and soul.

It was about 23 to 24 days without incident.

Today is the beginning of a new day.

And perhaps.

I'll manage to suppress it forever.

I hope.

Even if I can't, I must try.

Because.

Its to...

Cleanse my past.

Change my present.

Create my future.

십점 만점에 십점!

Friday of Week 7.

YESH!

Its another week gone. 5 weeks and counting down.

Then I'll fill my house with a DJ, a glittering ball hanging for the ceiling and invite a few guys and girls who are 십점 만점에 십점!

Don't mind the exclamation mark. It must go with that phrase for emphasis.

Heh.

What does that phrase mean?

When translated, it means :

십점 만점에 십점!

Ship Jom Man Jom E Ship Jom!

10 out of 10!

Which is, in like, "10 points out of 10 points!"

Its the debut single for the South Korean Boy Band, 2PM.

You gotta watch the MV for this song. Its break-dancing and its pretty nice-ish.

The song is really nice, with its rhyming and patterns. Not to forget the MV is a bit funny too.

So, what have I been doing for these past few days?

Nothing, nothing and nothing.

Except 3 hours from yesterday.

And seriously, I feel like I'm not even going to work.

You see, I was supposed to go to NUS with my supervisor to work on a documentation with the people there.

I was supposed to meet him at 3:30 pm.

By right, I could have gone to office at the usual 8:30 to 9 am time, then leave for Clementi at around 1:30pm.

But there's also another way.

I could just head directly for Clementi and reach there are 3:30pm.

But, I'd prefer the former rather than the latter.

At least, I'm in OFFICE.

Rather than letting everyone know I'm sleeping on my bed at home.

Who knows, someone might need me to do something, which I really need to have something to do before I die from boredom or something.

Anyway, I chose the latter, and woke up at 11:30 pm after countless ringings of my alarm.

At first I thought I could go office and show my face for a bit before heading to Clementi. But since there was just no time, I went straight to the MRT station. I reached at around 2:30 pm.

An hour early. Well, its better to be early than late. And, I'd prefer to reach there early, since I wasn't at office for the whole morning. It somehow, makes me feel as if I'm out at onsite at work.

So I waited till around 4:30 pm because my supervisor was held up back at office.

YOU SEE! I should have gone to office in the morning. Ah well.

But I don't feel angry or sorry to my supervisor for being late. He's held up. Probably due to a customer making changes or a meeting and he couldn't leave. Its understandable.

So he asked me to head on to NUS first and discuss the documentation with the customer first.

I took a cab down there and saw NUS for the first time in my life. Then I went to the Computer Centre to find the guy.

My supervisor gave me his number and asked me to call him. I gave the guy a call and he was in the meeting room with another guy.

They were dressed formally, while I was in casual clothing.

It had that "meeting" kind of feeling.

So he asked me on what my supervisor wanted from him. I told him exactly all the stuff, but I don't know whether it was correct as to what my supervisor wanted mostly because I didn't know about the background of that project.

But I somehow got an idea from what I was supposed to get.

Screen captures on configurations, IP addresses on how to telnet in.

Then while I was asking my supervisor for anything else, the customer requested to speak to my supervisor while using my handphone.

I'm like," YES! Finally, some initiative."

Didn't really care much about the phone call. Its work. And if a phone call's the only way to get the requirements fast, its better that way.

Then when I called my supervisor for the last time to ask if there was anything else, he told me to try not to call him now as he's in a meeting.

Then he asked me if I could keep the guy entertained for 30 mins because he was on his way there soon. I said I'll try.

And in the end, I couldn't. It gets hard when you're the younger one there. Get what I mean?

Then when my supervisor told me he was in the cab, I called him and told him the customer left.

Then, in a questioning and frustrated tone, he said he would call the customer. Then he said if I had nothing else, I could go.

Now, I feel very helpless.

I can't even hold the customer for 30 mins.

And the best part.

I came to work for 3 hours.

Self-pawned.

Nuff' said.

Back to what I'm doing now.

What am I listening to now?

2PM's 십점 만점에 십점! / 10 out of 10!

K.Will Ft. MC Mong's Love 119

王力宏's Forever Love

Coldplay's Viva La Vida

Not to forget... Ponyo On A Cliff!

Po-nyo Po-nyo Ponyo sakana no ko~

Aoi umi kara yattekita~

Po-nyo Po-nyo Ponyo fukuranda~

Manmaru onaka no onna no ko~

Ah well.

Went back to school just now at around 12 pm. Met up with some of 0603, D2 and FYP guys.

Not to forget, I feel like there are people whom I don't know that know me.

Which is good actually.

I have more friends that I don't know about.

Must be that stunt I pulled off on the last day of my FYP...

Met up with my project supervisor, Mr. Wagio.

Funny, he thought I scored 15 points for my GCE 'O' Levels.

Then after I told him my real score, I asked him why he thought I scored better.

He said someone told him. And he thought I looked like one who did pretty good in O levels.

Then the conversation just went on as normal.

Somehow, I don't really feel that I look studious. Must be my hairstyle.

I must say, I didn't study half as hard as compared to when I entered Poly.

Then Programming in C# placed an interest in me, enabling me to do well.

Networking was so-so. It made me sleep sometimes. Not to mention when the configurations failed, it pisses me off.

Logistics programs was pretty follow step-by-step on the book. Didn't learn much since I played CS more often than doing the work.

Now, I feel learning Korean is pretty much interesting. Even though I get jammed at times.

Not to mention I still have a whole korean dictionary to clear.

And I require a teacher or a korean friend to teach me to converse smoothly in the language.

Seems like from this, I can learn one thing.

Sometimes, you are not what you think you are.

And it is the actions or words of those around you,

That motivates and moves us to do things we would never try to do.

One thing that perhaps some people need.

Back. From Genting Highlands.

Again.

For the... 18th time?

No seriously. Going there so many times makes that place feel as if its my second home.

Not to mention I will never get lost there.

Except for one place.

The Casino.

Pfft. Another 2 more years and I shall go in.

Then I'll "announce" my completion of knowledge of the whole area in Genting.


Back to work. After 2 weeks of so-called holidays.

Back to the cruel world.

Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity!

Ah dang.

I personally feel, currently, in my life, that having something to do really makes you feel better than having holidays.

Why, you might ask?

If I have work to do, I can at least put some tasks on my mind.

If I'm having holidays, my mind will be thinking too much.

Things like:

Will I be able to make it after army?
What will I do after that?
What will I do while I'm pursuing my dreams?
What if I can't make it to University?
What if I'm not good enough?
What if I have insufficient resources to continue?
What if I fall before I even reach my goal?

And more stuff like that.

I've somehow solved about 2 of the problems listed above.

Sadly, it gave me 4 more problems to worry after that.

Not to mention from what I'm reading and seeing, it will be extremely hard.

But I'm definitely giving it a shot after army.

如果我不从现在开始, 而等待时间来改变自己命运,

到头来, 要后悔已经太迟了.

We create our own future. Our own destinies.

Time doesn't change anything.

Instead, it makes one lose their age, their youth.

It sometimes makes a person regret.

It makes one lose the few chances and opportunities to do something for themselves.

I've already wasted the past 16 years of my life doing nothing for myself.

And now I finally have a target. A path.

Its time to walk forward. Achieve it.

All I need after army, is a guide.

Isn't that what everyone needs?

A guide in their life.

Something to bring them to accomplish what they want.

I just need a guide to bring me to where I want to go.

And the closest thing I can see, is a school.

A visible guide, yet with unknown possibilities and outcomes.